Pitch Perfect - The Rif-Off

Watched the movie on Friday. Ordered the soundtrack when I got home. Received it today at work. Had it on repeat all day long.

Sleepless nights

I have not slept well for the last 5 weeks. I lie in bed awake for hours. When I finally get to sleep, I'm restless. I wake up several times a night.

It's catching up to me. I can't focus at work and I get so sleepy during the day. I think this time I really do need a case of 5-hour energy, grape flavor is preferred, but I'll also take berry. Orange flavor doesn't work for me.

My life is in limbo right now. I don't know what is going to happen, what I am supposed to do. I have thrown myself back into a life I had already closed the book on. I was supposed to move on, move forward. Now I have moved backward. I am stuck.

Not only am I stuck, I am stuck with no answers. If I had answers then I would know, I would be able to make decisions and know what to do next.

I Won't Give Up

I am not going to NC after all.

A situation arose.

I am not ready to talk about it.

I still love him.

I have faith in our love.

We just need time to work through this new obstacle to our love.

I believe in him.

I believe in us.

Two Weeks

In two weeks I will be on my third day with him. We will be in NC for our first visit together as a couple. I cannot wait! I am so excited!

I know the hardest part will be leaving him. I know I won't want to let him go. :(

He sent me the most beautiful e-mail on my birthday, professing his love and desires for our future. I truly am the luckiest girl in the world.

I am anxious for our life together to begin. We don't have a timeline, yet, though. We're still waiting because we don't know where he's going to relocate for work yet. Each day without him gets harder and harder. He wants me to remain engaged in my life here, but to me it's a world I am no longer a part of; a life no longer mine. Very little has meaning to me. Don't get me wrong. I'm not turning my back on my friends...but work and even my activities are just a drag now. More than half the time I sit there wondering what I am even doing there. I've cut back quite a bit on my activities, taking my name off events and working only those I had already started.

I have to admit, though, while it was nice not to be engaged in my activities for two months (no e-mails, no dealing with stupidity), I almost dropped the ball big time and effed up a big event that would have disappointed kids more than myself. Thankfully, some friends helped me and saved my ass big time. So now I'm just trying to tie up the last few things and not take on anything else.

I have never been this happy and I can't wait for our adventure to begin. <3

He loves me. <3

Cute

Don't we look so cute together? :D

Brighter Than Sunshine

I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine

It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine.

From This Moment On

I give my hand to you with all my heart
I can't wait to live my life with you I can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment, as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing, I wouldn't give
From this moment on